Rising from the Ash

It never fails. The Phoenix rises, lives, dies, and then is reborn and rises again.

There is a reason she is my totem, my center, my avatar.


So much has happened since the last time I posted. If you read this, then let me just give a soft, brief rundown.

I got divorced. It was hard enough coming to terms with the fact my husband was an emotional abuser, but once I did (with the help of some great friends) it became clear that he had no desire to change, and I had no desire to stay in that kind of a relationship. Despite always saying we would do things on friendly terms and remain friends, he made it a very difficult divorce. He kept the house, but I kept my sanity, pride, self-esteem, and my cat. I think I won, if there can be a win.

I moved out, found an apartment and moved in with a friend. We supported each other because it seemed when one of us had a job the other did not. Back and forth we went.

Then, at New Years, 2013, we decided to start dating. He's a great guy, and maybe some would consider it too soon or a rebound, but we really understand each other. He's playing BioShock2 as I write this, because he knows I like the story and suck at playing these kind of games. And he's supportive. And not abusive.

I recently started working at a permanent job. Not a temp anymore. This job is something I would never have thought I could do, and I still get nervous, but I take it one day at a time.  I've been doing well so far, and seem to be impressing my boss. I hope this is my 'forever job' because I really do like it. If I can learn what I need to be stellar at this job, and keep it for a long time, I think I could get into the life I always invisioned for myself.

There is a lot on the horizon. I can feel it. I can only hope it is good.