Depression

Took the first step towards trying to deal with my depression. I had seen an advert on Facebook for a drug trial for depression. I signed up. And the other day I went to the clinic office to fill in paperwork.

I haven't talked about this much because I don't like admitting I have depression. I used to just take St. John's Wort for it, and it helped. It doesn't anymore. It's been getting worse. It's caused a felt meltdowns recently, and yes, for that I have the added stress of taking care of the Bug to thank. I don't blame her, and I don't want to stop watching her, because by watching her I am helping Mur, and honestly it's about as close to raising a kid as I will ever get. I'm learning I don't have the patience to take care of a kid 24-7. But the stress and frustration isn't exactly helping the depression any.

And, come to find out, the PCOS can also cause depression. Which isn't the best of news really. It just means I have more reasons to need to seek some kind of help. Hubby's insurance doesn't kick in for me until after the new year, so this is really a good thing, if I can get into the trial. Sure there's side effects and risks, but there's side effects and risks for doing nothing too. At least this way, I'm trying.

I've spent too long doing nothing. It's time I tried doing something about this.
So I went to the clinic and signed up. Wish me luck they take me for the study. I'll be excited to see if the drugs help.