So today is a write off. Woke up, couldn't walk without pain (thank you gout) and m y mood was sour. Things spiraled out after that. Hubby and I had a record fight. Thankfully Mur and Dig were here to mediate. Not sure anything got solved but A lot got vented.
Not my proudest moment, but even if nothing comes of this at least I got some things said, even if he didn't hear them.
I'm just sick of being invisible and ignored or being second choice in his plans. He comes home, vanishes downstairs, goes to bed, gets up goes to work, repeats. On his days off he's off with his friends and I'm here watching the Bug. So I never see him, never get out and just got fed up with it.
So yes, I had a meltdown. I had a lapse in sanity and completely lost my cool. I'm not proud of it, but I feel somewhat better. Do I think anything will change? No... sorry. I'm still too cynical to think this is going to effect anything other than the fact I blew off some steam.
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